CHALLENGES

                         

The virtue of gratitude can be so difficult to amplify at times. Situations that cause shatter in our being are at times so strong.  In these times, they are few things that arise in daily interactions that cause the re-energizing of the soul. This, I believe is worth being grateful. The merry season gave reality to the test of gratitude. Woke up in tears one morning and it seemed that the hope that I hold so dear, was bursting in me to a feel of pain. The urge to have someone listen, caused me to run to the super power that I believe in. Wondering why I’m doing so; as I will not hear a response. At that moment all I need is to use my sense of hearing, have my scattered self glued back together. I reminisce over the merry globally, and as it kills me, I remind myself that I can get positive energy from it as much joy and hope reigns in the season. My mind has the ability to trick me to have a positive reason to every pitfall…. (I exude positivity). My eyes and mouth are pouring out; water that runs can’t seem to clean the words off their negativity. It’s a collision.

Determination: life has forced this on us. Systems and institutions that we subscribe to, enhance the projection. The hierarchy is in all that our determination has to break through all day. Sadly enough, only the results can be tangible evidence that one is actually determined in life. Results; people around have an understanding of the difficulty to achieve, the black hole is that, you cannot use the many rejection letters to the new application just to prove that you are in dire need. Entrepreneurs’ at the moment wonder why not consider self employment. The fact that the businesses would be noble other than product oriented closes the door of getting to shark tank. A search for redemption triggers talent search, the attempt to reach out to many, in photography, words, poetry, drawing, dance, comedy…. Name it. The market is still hierarchical as those that could give criticism, recommendations, advise, networks.. Bother Not. Determination is as the definition.

Relations; no man is an island. The selection panel for associations are purported to be individual. Individually though the patterns of those we relate with are as porous as ‘borders’ to terrorists. The reality of being ‘alone’ with so many patterns in life has been individually accepted and, is expected. Forming relations is concurrent to survival. Survival; as its unknown of the motive or the use of the …ships at times. Social platforms have transformed communication and connections we have. One can’t tell the true from the frauds as they are gauged by another in the same scale. Relations are forced to be cemented on trust that is assured of breaking, cracking, reassuring, manipulating all the possibilities seemingly intertwined. Yet one can’t forget to appreciate those that cause laughter, comfort, encouragement and wish well for them.

It’s sad that challenges are as assured as death in this life time. May the year be all we desire.

Reality vs Illusion

Reality is that which exists independent of human awareness. It is all that exists regardless of whether it is perceived or not; it is what makes statements true or false.
Illusion to me is the ability to breathe air into ones' system and harness it to help create the reality that you select.
Dreams are valid! A phrase that; thanks to Lupita runs through the mouths of all that have an illusion, that they want to transform to reality. This in itself shows that there is no limit to reality or the illusions that we have in our day to day life.
Power and control on how to enable this two to work for an individual, depends on the willingness of the mind to conceptualize and plan for the uncertainty that lies in the efficiency of the nose to inhale air. Someone said “"The brain did not evolve to see reality as it is, it evolved to see reality in a way that is useful."

I look at mad men and wonder what reality they perceive, I honestly envy the way that minute things that frustrate the overall human seems to not to get the attention of our dear persons. Salvador Dali says “there is one difference between a mad man and me, a mad man thinks he is sane. I know I am mad.” The perceived sane amongst us are all classified in terms of the brilliance, efficiency, charisma, class, style, money and the status they uphold. When an individual does not quantify to the many hierarchical conditions put off, their reality is seen as an illusion. This I say as I have heard that, many amongst us should not have a reason to live due not attaining the bar set upon us by those that illusion our life.


I suffer conflicts between distinguishing my thoughts to my reality and my uttermost illusions. I have many scenarios that I fail to put into any of the divisions. I have learnt that as long as my mind shows me the reality or the heightened illusion, and the results is me laughing uncontrollably loud by myself, is good enough reality to me. The synergy in me is enough to make my uncertainty wave off and be the mad person that many view as my reality.

CHOICE OF MY BEING.

Naming of an individual, is it a matter of reason, passion, desire, chance, nature, habit or compulsion. Does the name that is assigned to an individual have an irrational aspect to it; influencing the behavior and character of the persona?  Choose a character that not only redefines the name assigned to you, simply by creating a name that is worth another individual owning.
Association is the process of bringing ideas or events together in memory and imagination. Sort of, how the goals or objectives that one has decided upon them help measure the unknown mysteries of the life that will unfold.
Assigned; the appointment to a task or duty. First born siblings are a role model to the rest of the siblings; this is what socialization has appointed them to be. The task of being a leader is tested in all factual ways; economically, financially, spiritually, physically, emotionally and psychologically. One has to adhere to the un-identified pressure to fulfill a role or more, could be to feel that the obligation set upon has been fulfilled. Who knows?

The choice of one’s being should not be measured only by the association and assignment placed on their head, it should come from an alive soul that nourishes the person to be a force to reckon with in any situation or circumstances that come with the package of life. This comes into life with the quest to experience, understand, criticize, applaud, innovate and redefine all areas that one limits them to. The power is all in the being.


Labels are a part of how we can distinguish different aspects of what surrounds us. Gender labels, on the other hand are irrelevant in the associations that we hold so dear to our chest. Irrelevant in that, gender is heterosexist and only have two classifications, in the expansion of the knowledge spectrum that the world offers to us, we learn that this two are not the only aspects that distinguish between humans. Intersex persons and Trans persons are not included in this general label. The perception that we have of the "difference" between the two have been greatly challenged. This is through the interactions and simple observations of our societies throughout different time periods.
It saddens my soul…. all this unnecessary choices of our being.

UNTITLED

The depth my thoughts take at times causes ........  It’s not that I love the torture that I experience during my dark times but I love the strength that I make myself believe in to see me through till the next sunrise. The energy that lives within my mind can be so tragic to me, at times I wonder if a mental disease is cropping up on me, crawling within me, finding a home so that it can blossom and later leave me with nothing but the illusion mind that I would have pictured. This does not scare me though as much as the cold weather makes me shiver, thoughts they are at the end of the day.

My day to day activities run as smoothly as I picture, still debating how I can pull the strings of decency to foresee the direction that all this will take me. I have met beautiful minds, faces, personalities and the best part of these is the urge I do have to spread the little contented illusions that make up my persona these days... talk of a ruined reality. The sweetness of not knowing the accent, the processing, and the behavior of the unknown person seems to make me more at ease than the known comfort the clouds thrive in when lightning strikes. Though the environment of interaction is as known to me like the undergarment I have own, safety is paramount.

I love my days ‘dark’ and my nights ‘bright’. Dark from noticing the minute figments that are displayed by our surrounding that no one seems to get a connection to or seem to even care of their existence. Bright from all the stars shinning above my bedroom window that modernization seems to have swept under the bed as the cities light up and forge the dimensions that the natural light brought to it naturally. 

There was a time when my thoughts were bruised , lost myself in the twists and turns of the pages of my unwritten autobiography. Never felt so alone in my entire life. The fact that I can think free and speak without waiting for a response, a critic, and applause gives me more pleasure than any assurance can. All these are ideal components of communication and all these can result in a default setting in a human mind as the statement itself. At the stage I am at, communication is not the main issue that bothers my thought process it’s the execution of the translated message to see through Aristotle’s philosophy of causality.

One from him to close ……“All human actions have one or more of these seven causes: chance, nature, compulsion, habit, reason, passion and desire.”

REASON WITH A REASON

REASON WITH A REASON.

They say that everything happens for a reason, I propose that everything happens so that one can reason. Open up one’s self to new experiences, new breakthroughs, new navigation paths, re-write history or to simply break down one’s ego that might have sky rocket hindering the big picture that was to be. Reasoning is an art to many, expressed in music, paintings, dance, photography, poetry, motivational speaking as well as emotional outburst for some. Differences in the expression are varied depending on the individual as well as the society that surrounds them.

I envy the dimensions that the openness of one's mind presents. the opportunity to sieve, decipher and create a lot memories that have no limitations, the fallacy of delusion, illusion and perceptions that arise due to the exchange of grey matter to black and white pieces of art. The limitless dimensions that a simple discussion can bring, I at times envy the smart stoners, those that do not spend all their time smoking, but also have the chance to laugh at the so called paradises that they build or hallucinate. In one way or another I tend to view this as the will to let whatever idea that one has out there, and criticisms, laughter, awe moments that will arise from saying the thought are never imagined. This openness if cultivated within the persona  and can create a being that not only nourishes the mind but the soul as well, and in the simplest manner said, what the soul expresses is pure thus only positivity can thrive.

            Life is like an aspect of nature; the wind, you cannot really control it but you can harness it to bring in energy. At times when life changes the direction that we propose that it shall take, we become marginalized with the idea that the wind is against the flow of events that we want to take. The reasoning I choose from these is that the wind at times signifies the direction that the rains are coming from or headed to, rain is a positive aspect, in that it brings forth the growth of vegetation that is food for the soul. From photosynthesis which is the acquiring of the necessary tools to grow, to the germination, to sprouting of a bud, to the flower or the harvest until they wither off, later turn to manure and helps the next generation of plants. It’s simply how we pass morals, values, norms and good seeds from one generation to another. 

The perception that one has towards the indifference of life can result to accommodation and at times assimilation of individuals. It can progress, and as one said, progress does not necessarily mean advancement… it all depends on how one pictures themselves. Perception is the manner that we choose to interpret information and these can trigger our attitude towards the great spectrum that we want to achieve…. I am hoping that all individuals will be inspired to not only reach the self actualization level as depicted by the Maslow’s law, but the conceptual differences that each individual has towards themselves.

Wise words (You make the decisions to fulfill, to whatever extent, the potential life that exists within you- Hans Decoz)

IN MY BOX

              
 
People sigh at the very sound of the word love: the complex yet simple aspect that is commanded of us. What is love? This question triggers a lot of varied answers depending on the experiences, the social constructs, the gender, the material factors, the economy and the complexity of individual mindset. As said, “We are addicted to our thoughts. We cannot change anything if we cannot change our thinking."― Santosh Kalwar,

       

          Love to me is the state of giving an individual their peace of mind; I shall argue that when one has peace , joy, happiness,  patience and all the virtues that are escorted by the illusions of the 'word' then one has found love. In our society today, I see love being used, misused and not appreciated by many due to the many incidences that have occurred to them, financially, physically, emotionally, spiritually and even intellectually.

         The society, is a conditioned set of humans with similar beliefs, morals, values and culture; conditioned in the sense that the laws or the concepts passed from generation to generation end up being out-dated and if not, stereotyped though all the same, we rely on them and from these, policies and eventually laws are passed to suit the perceptions set. It's sad that moving away from these has resulted to people being labelled, stereotyped, called deviant and yet uniqueness is something praised in the mouths of the holders of this 'important' fragments. So, does the society propel love? That’s food for thought.
 

            I personally love some intellectual loving, whereby conversations trigger points in my mind that were once unexploited or rather, inexperienced. This has eventually enhanced my outlook on various issues that involve the individual, me and the society as a whole, giving me a reason to be more appreciative of small things that others may oversee or not comprehend. There is untapped energy in uplifting conversations; the kind that induces divine euphoria. Mental stimulation goes beyond physical stimulation; some may say its lack of a perverted mind, haha! Either way I guess that's what differentiates normalcy and reality.

   Happiness is sometimes crazy in one way or another. The elaboration of the reason why your cognitive ability has enabled you to process and decipher a thought to its greatest humour limit is dependent on your intellectual ability. I guess that why it’s said, “Sanity and happiness are an impossible combination.” Mark Twain I can add my own favourite: "Humour vibrates to those with the code capable of creating a scene worth a smile".

   “Music is a language that doesn’t speak in particular words. It speaks in emotions, and if it’s in the bones, it’s in the bones.” Keith Richards. Music is a special force that connects different aspects of our emotions into a synchronized harmony that elevates peace, joy, sadness, healing and sexual fantasies for the selected few… I enjoy a great piece that evokes an intellectual climax with a like-minded individual who not only listens to the lyrics and beats, but creates with me the imagination that will bring forth a memory. 

Society should be fluid as music in that everyone enjoys the genre that reflects more on their character. I am not saying that values upheld should be dropped for that would only bring ancestral war into the picture! Deviant behaviour is synchronised in each one's conscience, those that act on the evitable are acting from free will and thus all of us do not have to live under the dome of being lab rats to the rating of the society as good, bad or mad. Just as most of us love music, let's love the person we are and the society will be transformed as well.

The claptrap in my thoughts is aligned to the simplicity that comes from the magnificent peace of the mind when context is not complicated with content. Don’t look for something to smile about for nature is reason enough for one to smile.